fighting for a cause lost..

they say that a fight is worth winning if the cause is worth fighting for...
this exam the cause was totally lost on me and somehow all i could do was write the exam for the sake of it...i wont take any pride out of this performance because it will be a performance best forgotten.
the bottomline is..i screwed up this sem...wasnt active in the projects and group tasks...which i think i handled well last time around...lost an opportunity to become a C.R. as i slept for 99% of the entire sem. and i SUCK at P.R. so thats out of the equation...
in an ideal situation, i could have prepared for the externals in a way that would take the internal evaluations out of the equation but the system didnt allow me to. It was simply not possible....
so i guess what it came down to was that all i could do was damage control...and thats what i've been doing for the last 7 days, sleepin for 3-4 hrs a day and studying by guts out just to salvage something out of nothing...
I've virtually given up the ghost today. there is still the eco paper to take care of,and i really dont have the heart or will to study for it.
what this exam has done is that i havent been able to spend time with either su or pillu. I guess it was my choice not to study with them but to be honest that was more because i wasnt comfortable at all studying in the library....sorry for that girlsv ;)
Tomorrow will be a hectic day, with me n pillu n su packing things and in a hurry to leave, i dont think we'll find a few minutes to wish each other happy holidays...
but as Scarlett O' Hara says in 'Gone with the Wind' - Tomorrow is another day.
Andy